Returned

thanks to all the kinds of games i was playing,

for a long time i wrote nothing,

i used to be a semi armature blogger of my own kind,

but from last night,

i felt i need to write again,

near two years have passed from my last post on my blog,

during these twisted dark days and longer nights,

that nothings came out or i myself prevented it to be written,

i felt the cold grasp of death around my neck that was chocking me,

in nights, i was looking for somewhere like a bar to drunk myself on it to be able to go to sleep without any pain, that bar was my PC and there was plenty of choices of liquor on it, Puzzles, MMO, RPG, Tower Deffence,.. from all the good brands,

it was good for that night, it work perfectly to make me pacified for a night,

but the problem would start again from the god damn morning, while i was on the way to work...

each day, i ate my anger, my hatred, the bitter feeling of being not satisfied with what i am now, i tried to forget all of those bad feelings, i tried to make them disappear by not looking on them,

but with such action,

i made the chain of dissatisfaction stronger and longer.

my mind was too busy that has no time to think about my own problems, because it was dedicated to solve all the kind of puzzles and quests,

it was like you cant have enough air to breath, like chocking.

well,

i think that's enough,

i want to change that,

also,

i think after long time i wrote something good that make me feel better :D